It's Probably Just Me, But....

Lately I have been noticing that people seem to dislike a lot of things about me and I find myself almost lying that I like things when I really don't just so they don't judge me. I feel like certain persons look at me and my taste weird. I asked my bff about this the other day and asked her if I tended to do that to others or to her and she said no. I asked her, "if you say, for example, I like the color purple, do I say "why would you like that??" all disgusted or like she's ignorant." She told me absolutely not. I trust her, I believe that I don't do this to others. However, I have noticed recently that it seems to happen to me a lot.
The prime example? I actually did get a Kindle for my birthday (see: my previous post regarding "extreme wishlist") and what do I hear from several people? "Why'd you do that?" "Why would you get one of those?" "I tried to give her a lecture but she wouldn't listen." Why do I need to justify something that I find interesting and that I would like? Do I judge people who spend money like it's going out of style? In my head, yes. To their faces? No. That's their decisions and I'm not going to put my opinion out there to make them feel bad.
Things like that really, really piss me off. Other things are like the movies or tv shows I watch are insulted or put down like I'm some kind of hillbilly-redneck (which I am but that's another story). Do you hear me insulting American Idol, The Office, Nip/Tuck, Mad Men or other such *crap* that I don't like. No, I may say that I don't watch it or it doesn't interest me but I don't say insulting things that can hurt feelings. Food I like is another thing, I just feel like I have to be someone I'm not, just to fit in. I suppose that's why so many people do try to "fit in."
I guess what I'm saying is that I wish people were more concientious about what they say to others because it can hurt people's feelings - more than you may know.
I sincerely apologize that this blog has turned into a whiny platform but it's pretty much all I've got right now. I wish I could get my act together and take some pictures of things that need to go on here. I'll try. Really... :)

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Ok, so 2 blog posts in one day - I know! Shocking!
I was just thinking about stuff and had a thought (I know, that's shocking as well!). I'm 31 years old yet there are times when I still feel like the most unpopular person/nerd/unaccepted. I sometimes feel accepted but then there are little things that make me realize that I'm not as sophisticated as some of these people and therefore, I am left out. I don't like that feeling. It sucks. It makes me very self-conscious. I come from Ypsilanti. One of the hotspots for Kentucky and Tennessee refugees of the early-mid 20th century because of the manufacturing jobs. Well, Ypsilanti is a lot like "down south." You will find people who have lived up here for 40+ years and still have a thick mountain accent. I seem to think that I have a lot more of those characteristics than not. Simply put, I feel like I am more white "trashy" then I originally thought. I think this makes a bad impression on people and therefore I am shunned sometimes because of my "rough edges" (rough edges compared to those around me). Sorry that I wasn't a drama kid or went away to camp when younger or traveled to Europe or that I don't live as green as I should or drink coffee or eat chocolate. I'm weird ok? I get it. Just don't treat me like I'm ok some of the time but not always. It's not cool to blatantly leave someone out. No one wants to be the last kid picked if you know what I mean.

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