Walking

I have taken to walking about 1.5 miles every day (or every other day). Looks like it has helped a little bit. I am also wearing my pimped out Skechers Shape-Ups. They're awesome and I do like that I feel like I'm working a little harder with them.

Lost: -0.4 lbs

Total To Date: -19.6 lbs

It's Probably Just Me, But....

Lately I have been noticing that people seem to dislike a lot of things about me and I find myself almost lying that I like things when I really don't just so they don't judge me. I feel like certain persons look at me and my taste weird. I asked my bff about this the other day and asked her if I tended to do that to others or to her and she said no. I asked her, "if you say, for example, I like the color purple, do I say "why would you like that??" all disgusted or like she's ignorant." She told me absolutely not. I trust her, I believe that I don't do this to others. However, I have noticed recently that it seems to happen to me a lot.
The prime example? I actually did get a Kindle for my birthday (see: my previous post regarding "extreme wishlist") and what do I hear from several people? "Why'd you do that?" "Why would you get one of those?" "I tried to give her a lecture but she wouldn't listen." Why do I need to justify something that I find interesting and that I would like? Do I judge people who spend money like it's going out of style? In my head, yes. To their faces? No. That's their decisions and I'm not going to put my opinion out there to make them feel bad.
Things like that really, really piss me off. Other things are like the movies or tv shows I watch are insulted or put down like I'm some kind of hillbilly-redneck (which I am but that's another story). Do you hear me insulting American Idol, The Office, Nip/Tuck, Mad Men or other such *crap* that I don't like. No, I may say that I don't watch it or it doesn't interest me but I don't say insulting things that can hurt feelings. Food I like is another thing, I just feel like I have to be someone I'm not, just to fit in. I suppose that's why so many people do try to "fit in."
I guess what I'm saying is that I wish people were more concientious about what they say to others because it can hurt people's feelings - more than you may know.
I sincerely apologize that this blog has turned into a whiny platform but it's pretty much all I've got right now. I wish I could get my act together and take some pictures of things that need to go on here. I'll try. Really... :)

Beware!

Tonight's weigh-in is likely to be ugly, people. I'm using this time to re-focus and get back on track. It was a hard week. I don't know why but I think the awesomeness that was CA's strawberry cupcakes and strawberry frosting (finally something non-chocolate!) is what did me in. Stay tuned...post to be edited later.

Edited 3/3/10 11:33 a.m.: Ok so I am up +1 lbs. Not good but not as bad as I thought either. I'm definitely regrouped this week and I can already tell I'm doing better. I'm not guaranteeing loss this upcoming week but we'll see...

To date: -19.2 lbs

What's Your Passion?

My friend and fellow blogger, Jen recently posted about her passions. I have decided to be very uncreative and "copy" her post. Imitation is the biggest form of flattery, right?


What are your passions? What are my passions? Jen says that they can change and I feel that's true.


1. New Orleans - My first visit in 2002 changed my life. I fell utterly and completely in love with the city. I emersed myself in it. I love the music, the architecture, the history, the food, I even love the smell (as gross as it can be on Bourbon Street). I have taken to reading anything I can find on it. I was devastated when Katrina hit only 4 short months after my second visit. I love the city and would do anything to have a second home there in my retirement years.

2. Books and Reading - If you know me, you know that I feel naked without a book. I always have to have a book with me. It doesn't matter if I'm at a baseball game or going to a restaurant, I have to have a book with me. I love to read. Reading is like breathing. I can't live without it. I will read anything. As long as I'm reading, I'm keeping my mind active. I obviously love fiction first and foremost. I also love history books. If you saw my collection of books about the Titanic, you'd probably think I was a nut. At last count, it topped 80 different books. I can't learn enough. There's too much out there. In a fantasy world, I would have a room that was a library like in old homes and had such high shelves that you have to have one of those rolling ladders to reach anything. I love my books however, I have come to realize that in this day and age, I might actually benefit from getting an eReader; perhaps the Kindle. I think I'm moving toward keeping the books that I really love and buying those that I love and moving away from buying everything I want to read and then hanging on to them forever. As much as I love them, some books aren't worth the space they take up or at least they're not worth the space for so long.

3. Crafting - I love to craft. I'm no good at it but I love it. My mom is spectacular at it. She does everything. She bakes, makes gifts, does beautiful gift baskets, sews, scrapbooks, quilts, crochet, papercrafts, everything! None of it is tacky either! I have an entire room at my house which is my crafting space. Although it was put together when I was pregnant, I haven't used it. In fact, it's just my catch-all room right now. Part of the problem is I didn't have a radio or tv up there to listen to and I hate the quiet. Now I have one of those little portable boom box things for my iPod so I can listen to a book or something. Hoping to get the cable run up there as well. I don't have time for any of it. Knitting, I love it, finally kind of got the hang of it but there's no time to work on a project! Crochet as well. It's a lot faster but I haven't had the opportunity to do anything. My scrapbooks are obscenely behind. That may change. A girl (you can see her blog here) I went to school with and that I'm going to be in a wedding with invited me to a local open scrap she goes to every last friday of the month. I'm going to go this week. I'd like to at least get a couple of pages done. I'll post the results :)

I suppose that's it for now. Nothing life changing or worthwhile. As my friend Jen says that she's passionate at being a good wife and mother, I am as well. I'm no good at that either but I try. I worry most about Emily. I want her to be a good girl and I doubt myself anytime she gets sad or upset. I just don't want her to be what I call "a sticky-kid." Sticky kids are the kids that kind of never had rules and stuff growing up and just kind of got dirty and had kool-aid rings around their mouth and got in trouble and stuff. I don't want her to be a sticky-kid. My husband, he knows I try to be a good wife. At least I hope he knows. Lord knows we've been through enough that has tested me (no, nothing like Tiger Woods or anything..other stuff) but I try.

I had it coming...

This week wasn't too much of a surprise. I haven't been eating well lately. Time to get it in gear and get back on track and start getting my butt out at lunch for a stroll around the block. Two other coworkers do this and I have hesitated to go thinking they would think I am following them or copying them. However, I don't care what they think anymore. I have a new book on my iPod and I'm going to take a 20 minute walk.

Weigh In: +0.6 lbs - not too bad considering

Total to Date: -20.2 lbs

Biggest Regret

...my biggest regret was not going to grad school.

I feel like such a loser.

Feeling Bleh

I'm pretty sure I had a bad week this week and I'm not looking forward to the weigh-in. I'm guessing I'm up about 3 lbs or more. We'll see...to be continued....

Edit: 2/15/10, 9:05 pm
OH MY GOODNESS...I lost 1.2 lbs. I am now ....

Lost: -1.2 lbs

Total to date: -20.8 lbs

Holla!